Tuesday 9 January 2018

Sadly Missed....

Last Saturday we had to make the heartbreaking
decision to say goodbye to our beloved Guinness.
This has been one of the most difficult decisions we had
to make as a family, he was such a huge part of our everyday life
for so long, letting him go we all knew was not going to be easy
and would leave us with a massive void.
 However I believe truly loving also means letting go
when it is for the best even when your not ready....

The last few days have been tremendously emotional and raw
with floods of tears still uncontrollably popping up,
home feels strange & a little hollow without the gentle
pitter patter sound of his paws as he is hopping around.
We catch ourselves doing things as if he were still with us.  
I guess it will take time before we find our new normal. 
We have all been hit by his loss much harder
then I could have ever imagined!!! 

Chosen in 2005 by a then not so teen teen Paperdoll he came
to live with us at only six weeks old, that day I could not have foreseen
in my wildest dreams how much of a beautiful impact this sweet little
black & white bunny would have on each of us over the years.
A life before Guinness is something baby Paperdoll can't even remember.
 The two of them have been thick as thieves ever since
baby Paperdoll made her first steps.
It was impossible not to fall in LoVe with this charming character,
he had us wrapped around his little whiskers within days,
we loved spoiling him & he enjoyed the attention!
Outliving the average life expectancy for bunnies by quite a few years, 
he reminded us daily, not just in recent years, he was anything but average!!!

He was a truly uniqe bunny....
....he had an opinion on the telly programme and if he didn't approve 
of your choice he'd soon let you know about it
....he loved cuddles  
....went wild for peanuts, peanut-butter & peanut-flips
....enjoyed Christmas
....forever inquisitive 
....loved sitting by my feet
....spent hours gazing into flickering candles
....always followed Mr Mc to the kitchen
to see what sweet treat was on offer
and he was of the opinion furniture was not just for humans.
He was wonderfully funny. 
Unbelievably easy to look after needed so very little from us
yet giving so much happy distraction to us, especially during
tough times like Mr Mc deployments to Iraq & Afghanistan.

 Guinness for a little over twelve & a half years you spoiled us
with your cheeky.... funny.... sweet.... loving.... personality 
and we loved every minute of it!!
You have given us the most beautiful memories 
that will be cherished in our hearts & minds forever.  

We have been truly blessed to have had you with us for as long as we did.
Thank you for your beautiful unconditional LoVe!!!

!! You are so sorely missed !!

Monday 1 January 2018

A Glance Back....

2018 has started
with the morning after the night before!
I was so very happy last night to say goodbye to 2017,
a crazy and so unbelievably surreal year!

Unlike this photo may suggest....
my farewell to this past year was a lovely quiet one
with Mr Mc & the Paperdolls, just how I like it!
Playing games and being amazed by superb card tricks performed
for us by baby Paperdoll (a little magician in the making),
watching the New Years Eve classic "Diner for One"
followed by firework shows from around the world!
At midnight there were Sparklers & Champagne!
No "New Years Resolutions" from me, I'm filled instead with
plenty of Hopes & Dreams for this coming Year!

Yesterday morning, before the final countdown, I grabbed a quiet moment.
A little reflection was needed!
My last few weeks have been so hectic that much of them feel a little blurry
to me now, so before I fully submerge myself into the Year ahead
I needed a moment to remember
the everyday beauty & excitement of my last two months.

At the beginning of November I spent a couple of days in Berlin,
for the first time in two years, meeting up with family & dear friends.
I'm very glad I made this trip, I had the loveliest time.
Hopefully it won't be so long next time before I return. 

As a rule I'm someone who likes to play it safe and my job choices
are no exception to that rule but after a lot of
back & forth with myself last summer, I decided to jump
into the new job venture I mentioned on here before.  
 I have to confess the jury is still out on whether or not this job
is right for me, more time is needed to make that call.
Knowing however that no matter how this works out
I will never be left wondering
..?..WHAT IF..?.. 
leaving me with a wonderful content feeling.
If nothing else this has been a life lesson for me!

The snow came early this Winter, first only on higher ground.
Living in the Scottish Highlands has without question it's downsides
but the breathtaking beauty of the surrounding countryside
is definitely not one of them! 

 Then overnight our neighbourhood was....

turned into a Winter wonderland.

I LoVe how snow turns the mundane into....


Much to the delight of baby Paperdoll
the snow was so plentiful she could build a large snowman:
He lived in our front garden for nearly a week.
It still is the simple things children find the most joy in!


I had many ideas of what I wanted to do creatively in the run up to
Christmas, but in the end I literally run out of time.
Lesson learned.... 
this year start creative Christmas makes in September!!!    

My Christmas was a cosy simple beautiful time
....practically perfect in every way!

Looking forward to this year....
I'm determined to shape my everyday leaving me feeling less 
like the passenger on the wrong ship
but more like the captain of my own destiny!